darksecrets

2008-06-23T03:10:00.000-07:00

suddenly i just felt so tired.Its good that i wason my way home when i foundout about this.Or else,i would not know how to handle this anymore.if i could choose, perhaps i would rather be unaware of it.Because this would mean everything is just a facade.Your tone told me that i was not thinking too much.Yet,somehow,deep down, how i wish u could look into my eyes and just tell me that

IT

IS

NOT

TRUE!!!

2008-06-17T06:18:00.000-07:00

It is almost time to go back.. =)

2008-04-26T00:02:00.000-07:00

if the truth is so painful,
i would rather not knowing it in the first place;
if love can be so painstakingly sweet,
i would rather be lonely in the first place;
who's there to lend me a shoulder to cry on when I feel so weak and fragile?
who's there to hold my hand to walk thru this long,unpredictable journey of life?

i see no light,i sense no hope..

suddenly i feel so alone..

2007-11-29T06:46:00.000-08:00

have been in malaysia for a few days.it's really fun,but tiring as well.first time in life that i ever felt so tired when it comes to shopping.from megamall to bungsar village,one utama to central market,summit to times square,i can forsee my newly bought high heel cracking in a day or two.i guess its time to put a stop to my still on-going shopping craze and dedicate more time on shedding more pounds.argh!malaysian food is really a killer to my penguin-like body shape.

2007-07-21T00:34:00.000-07:00

i feel like i have lost myself sometimes..
i feel like i am just not myself.
i feel so numb...wadz happening 2 me?..
sometimes i just hope that i can never wake up from dreamland,
where times could stop as much as i wan
where wishes could be realised
but no matter wad i wish..
the reality is alwaes there for me
where dreams r alwaes dreams
and the world will still move on..
its time to wake up chun..

2007-07-16T19:32:00.000-07:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before

Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door

Why did you have to go?

You could have let me know;

so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed

but you wouldn’t give me a chance

With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand

And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face

Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside

This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don’t know what else I can do

Don’t tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I fine it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to doI'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)

You gotta be feeling crazy

How can you walk away

(When) Everything stays the same

I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back

Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that

Why can't you look at me

You're still in love with me

Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just, just start all over again

Get it back to the way it was

If you give me a chance I can love you right

But you're telling me it won't be enough

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I fine it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do

I'll wait for you

=)..my fav song from elliot yamin

hai!school is starting and i have to transform back to this pathetic nerd again.sianz!!winnie was the 1st person i met when i came back to canberra.she showed me her photos in melb and it was like so happening la.i also wana go nex time winnie!!yah..chua they all come back subsequently and i finally managed to see weiling's bf.=)..he seemed really nice and he was realy sweet.cos therez a few times whereby we were walking on the street in the freezing cold breeze,he went to buy hot coffee for weiling.so nice!was trying to find a few jobs these few days as well to make up for the big loss in my wallet during the three weeks back in singapore.jia you jia you!=)

2007-07-15T00:31:00.000-07:00

10th july was an upsetting day.cos i had to leave singapore..finally.i had yet to meet meihui,face plant gang..and amos wang.the sushi lunch buffet before me was tasteless.memories were swirling in my mind.those days that meet up with jing ,vincent,matt and others were the happiest times i can eva have.

watching 3 movies in one weeks.

kboxing,tim sum-ing, sakae sushin-ing,..yum!!

and i fell in love with this drink called wateva,u will never noe wad is inside the drink until u drank it.cool rite?

so @the airport i was really quiet,my heart felt so heavy and suddenly,i felt so alone.

before the the plane took off,i felt so emotional,and suddely, a guy stopped before me and smiled at me.he was Ian,my about-to-know flight partner.

"so,you are studying in australia as well?"he nodded and smiled again.it then started our conversation for the rest of the really long flight.

well,it can actually be really lucky to meet Ian.Cos he was really funny,witty and most importantly,crappy as i am. and both of us juz realised that we were as vain as the other:we tried sun-tanning to make us look better.

we parted at the transit,where he's gonna to take a domestic flight to melb and i would continue the flight to sydney.i was so tired that i literally slept through the second part of the journey.When i finally reached canberra, i was really half dead.but i was not as upset as before alredy.well..i am looking forward to a brighter and happier start nex sem in canberra.

2007-07-08T03:55:00.000-07:00

having been back to singapore for almost three weeks...i still feel so tired.juz tired..for no reason.xinfu..guess is wad i am feeling now..meeting up with old frenz ...n juz simply crappin,emo-ing,eating and shopping.it used to be such a small part of life..but y am i feeling so miserable when i thot bout the return to aussie?

am i home sick?

i seriously don't know.

2007-04-30T07:33:00.000-07:00

guess it has been such a long time since i last blogged..yah..guess its juz so troublesome to keep on updating sometimes.sort of getting used to the life here in aus now..its actualli not a realli exciting place..esp when every one is literally having hols in singapore and i am here having all exams and stuffs.but i guess its the frens tat make a difference.I really adore mel,winnie and weiling!..and and the "sisters" in the unilodger gangs!cant imagine we have done so much things in the past 2 months.juz celebrate mel's bdae todae.its realli sweet..everyone juz gather at winnie's place and having potluck.it was then followed by our usual routine: MAFIa!love u lot mel!stay pretty and happy always!=)

2006-12-27T08:45:00.000-08:00

yeah..finally got time for blogging!=)..ha..yesterdae went for a movie with justin,chalene ,amos and jeff they all.amos and his bro was the 1st to arrive..and we met them in front of famous amos..lol..wonder if its realli coincidental=P..realli love tat movie alot..was actualli lookin forward to it before goin for the thailand trip.luckily it was not not a letdown.ha..but was a bit surprise though..tot it is suppose to be a thriller?but guess it sort of turn out tat it is more funny than scary.lol.anyway,yeah!..finally fulfilled my wish of watching death note II.=) ya..thnx amos,for treating us to the movie and popcorn!=)went for this budgeted but nice jap restaurant for dinner..not sae extremeli oishi or filling..but was sufficient without making a bigger hole in our already emptied pockets.ha..hope there will be more movie outings in time to come=)..